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[Jan. 25th, 2007|05:13 pm] |
Things have gotten so crazy lately. Today was the first day in forever i could get my room cleaned and my laundry done. I haven't been home in so long and i love it. Birthday season has begun so ive been busy taking out my ladies and planning parties. Have you ever heard the saying "when one door closes another opens" Well apparently its true. I let go (finally!) and i wound up with more then I could handle. (not really, keep em coming!) Don't get me wrong the attention has done wonders for my confidence. I love that im actually being taken out on REAL dates and they are paying and opening doors for me and letting me be me. Ive changed alot of people often tell me how much i've grown this summer. I guess when shit hits the fan and you are forced to grow up and take care of yourself your bound to change but i never thought i would look back on feelings i had and feel like it wasn't me. I can't imagine the life i use to lead with the shitty friends and shitty men and the way i behaved in so many situations. It kinda sucks. I wish I had been this mature and calm and over all happy the whole time but i guess i never would have learned WHAT NOT TO DO IN A RELATIONSHIP. The power of nonviolence has helped alot too. I have learned to not make excuses for certain behaviors and to recognize them and deal with it in a mature manner. I haven't gotten into an arugment with anyone is so long and most of all i find it easier to meet new people when you really are happy. They see it and want to be around you because your fun. I learned i don't need a man and that is a beautiful feelings. Most importantly I realized what I want out of another person and that I don't have to settle because im worth so much more. This weekend really put that into perspective. I wish alot of things would have ended differently but for everything that ive lost this past year I have gained so much more! More quality people in my life who will love me when im down and not being myself. I have also learned to be more honest with myself and others about how I am feeling. I use to lie to my friends and boyfriends because it was easier then to take a long hard look at myself and see my flaws. My flaws dont make me a bad person....its the opposite. Flaws make things more beautiful. As my birthday gets closer and closer i am starting to really see who I am and my goals in life. I never thought my life would be this way at this age but its not a bad thing. Im happy and more importantly Im finally ME!
I know the things I like and the things i dont like, and they have nothing to do with anyone else or what they think i should like or be. My heart is finally open. It took losing (what i thought) the love of my life to finally crazk my wall. Whats the point of having a heart if it isnt open? I love to the fullest and am loved to the fullest and that makes my life utterly beautiful and it makes me want to yell from the higest mountain "IM FINALLY FREE! THIS IS ME AND I LOVE IT AND I LOVE YOU!" I know it sounds corney but maybe thats what true love is.... |
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[Nov. 20th, 2006|11:38 pm] |
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i actually like life. |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2006|01:23 pm] |
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I really wish things were different. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2006|12:15 am] |
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ahhh so i kinda love him....maybe, just alittle. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2006|08:18 pm] |
1.What is in the back seat of your car right now?
your mom
2. What is your favorite food?
blended spam with whipped topping. mmhhhmmm preservatives.
3. What is your favorite all time sports team??
The Ganjastics, funded by MaryJane's Home Cooking.
4. What was the last thing you threw up?
Heavenly choirs of Angels sing on high.
3. Do you smoke?
MAMAJAMMMMAAA
6. What is the last funny text message you received?
i WEAR MY SUNGLASSES AT NIGHT
7. Have you ever had a private maid?
ANITA BUT SHE USE TO EAT CHEESEBURGERS UNTIL 7AM AND THEN PAS OUT NAKED IN OUR FOUNTAIN....I THINK SHE WOULD VIOLATE THE DOG IN THOSE MISSING COUPLE HOURS.
8. When was that last time you licked someone?
2 YEARS AGO BUT I JUST GOT LICKED BY MY TROLL
9. What is the last thing you regret purchasing?
A WIG...WHEN I GO OUT I USE AN ALIAS....ANASTASIA BEAVERHOUSEN...
10. Whatchu Kno about Dat?
I HATE YOU ALL, YOUR MOMS A WHORE
11. What is the longest flight you have been on?
FUCKIN WEASEL
12. What is your favorite episode of Full House?
THE ONE WHERE UNCLE JESSE DRESSES UP LIKE A FROG AND THEN LEAPS AROUND THE KITCHEN....SAYING "ABBA ZABBA, YOU MY ONLY FRIEND!"
13. Say a line from Ferris Bueller's Day Off?
YOUR DAD WEARS SWEATER TIGHTS
14. Does anyone have any blackmail on you?
OH YEAH, THE TIME I STOLE YOUR MOM AND HUMPED HER IN THE BACK OF A PICKUP TRUCK DOWN BY THE RIVER...SHE HAD BUG BITES ALL OVER HER ASS....HA
15. What do you think of Pee Wee Herman?
MY FRIEND HAD HIS CHILD...WEIRD.
17. Have you been to a strip club?
I OWN ONE BITCHES...AND ITS ALL OLD WHITE WOMEN WITH ONE BREAST AND THREE LEGS...COME ON DOWN!
18. Do you like tan lines?
I LIKE YOUR MOMS TAN LINES
19. What is the last bet you lost?
I BET THAT MY TROLL COULDN'T JUMP OFF THE TOP OF THE STADIUM...AND WELL HE DID AND WELL HE DIED....AND I MISS HIM....OH GOD! THE HORROR...HIS LITTLE TROLL BODY SQUISHED AGAINST THE PAVEMENT..."DID YOU EVER KNOW THAT YOUR MY HERO...YOUR EVERYTHING I WOULD LIKE TO BEEEEE, WELL I, I COULD FLY HIGHER THAN AN EAGLE...CAUSE YOU DIDN'T HAVE THE WIND BENEATH YOUR WINGS...(AND DIED A HORRIBLE DEATH.......) LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
20. Would you date someone that none of your friends liked?
IF HE HAD A GOOD HAIRCUT
21. where were you an hour ago?
HUNTING WILD GAME
22. Where were you last year this time?
IN HAWAII GIVING BIRTH TO ALADDINS FIRST LOVE CHILD....and fighting ninjas
23. What is the largest amount of money you spent in one store?
no
we have to play those games...games are the only thing that gets us places....oh my god games....
24. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
bon jovi
25. When is the last time you went to the mall?
i had to buy a small chinese child last week
26. Are you wearing socks right now?
yeah dude
27. When was the last time you went out of town?
last week i went to geneva to buy some shoes and then i flew to germany because my husband just moved there...what!
28. What was the last thing you had to drink?
A DIRTY MARTINI WITH DIRTY HARRY
29. What are you wearing right now?
A SPONGE, IT SOAKS IT ALL IN...GROSS
30. Have you been in a car wash?
PARK THE CAR IN THE HARVARD YARD....LA
31. What the last thing you ate?
LIK YO GRHAMMER
32. Where were you last week on Saturday?
PREVENTING FOREST FIRES WITH SMACKY THE FROGG AND SMOKEY THE BEAR HI KIDS, WELCOME TO THE SHOW!!!
33. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
WHAT!@#$ I DONT LIKE TUXEWDO CONDEMS THEY MAKE YOUR COCK LOOK BLACK....HAHAHAHHA
34. When is the last time you ran?
I JUST TRIED TO DELETE COCKY AND IT TOOK 5 FUCKIN TIMES BITCH
35. What's the last sporting event you watched?
DOG FIGHTS...yeah im that hardcore...killa killa killaaaaaaaaaa....man killer the dog yo...what ever happened to him...yo....i wonder if he's in heaven....awww poor poor killa
36. What is your favorite class?
germany mud wrestling with midnights
37. Your dream vacation?
saving wild goats in vietnam
38. Last persons house you were in?
your moms....
40. What gets on your nerves?
laundry
41. Do u miss anyone?
BUDDY LEE, WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO HIM...CUTE LITTLE GUY
42. Last movie you saw?
MIGHTY MOUSE
43. What are your plans for tonight?
FOLDING THE LOAD OF LAUNDRY...FUN
44. Who is the last person you sent a message to on myspace?
LIE #437 T.I.D.T.A. "NO DUDE I CANT DO THIS DUDE...JUST NO"
45. Ever go to camp?
I MEAN REALLY
46. Were you an honor roll/dean's list student in school?
BITCH CHILD
47. What do you want to know about the future?
OF COURSE DUDE! WTF,
48. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
ALL YOU CAN EAT BITCHES
49. Are you hungry?
EXCITED
50. What kind of hairstyle/color do you like on the opposite sex ?
CURLY MANE OF MAN HAIR THANK YOU...who said that!
51. Do you like sushi?
only on tuesdays....ha tuesdays with morrie....isnt that a book...yeah, it was oprahs book club! I love oprah!!!
52. Do you have a tan?
MY TAN WILL EAT YOU
53. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
84 SO I CAN LEGALLY NEGLECT THEM
54. Do you collect anything?
SHOES FROM HOLLAND
55. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
I JUST HAVE TO EASEEEEEEEEEEE INTO IT
56. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
WITH YOUR MOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
57. How do you like your drinks?
STANDING IN MY UNDERWEAR...OH MY MY MY
58. Do you like hot sauce?
ONLY IN CASUAL WEAR
59: When was the last time you took a shower?
WHY IM ACTUALLY IN THE SHOWER NOW MY DEAR FRIEND! HIDDY HO!!! OLD CHAP
60. Are you someones best friend?
MRS. PLUM
61. Are you rich?
AS A MATTER OF FACT IM SITTING IN GOLD COINS MMHMMM IM A TREASURE HUNTER...WOW...HOW GLAMOURS....
62: Who do you think will respond back to this?
THE HULK BITCHES
63: What is your best feature?
IF I HAD TO BE ANY BUG THOUGH ID BE A BUMBLE BEE....YEAH DUDE, THEY STING YOU....ID STILL TJ...HAHAHA...no really.(unless he's allergic)in that case i'd sting his mom...its not my job.,....
64: What time are you going to bed tonight?
soooooooooooooon
65. What is the greatest number?
ahhhhhhhhh i need 100 pointsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss......help me aladdin...............siem |
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[Sep. 4th, 2006|05:58 pm] |
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This sucks. |
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| Echo |
[Jul. 23rd, 2006|12:52 am] |
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He looked over and smiled and said "What do you want to hear?" I said "something pretty" and he played this...
9. Echo - (3:33)
There's something about the look in your eyes
something I noticed when the light was just right
it reminded me twice that I was alive
and it reminded me that you're so worth the fight
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
strange how it turns out that way, yeah
Could you show me dear?
something I've not seen
something infinitely interesting
could you show me dear?
something I've not seen
something infinitely interesting
There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
more subtle than something someone contrives
your movements echo that I have seen the real thing
Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
strange how it turns out that way, yeah
Could you show me dear?
something I've not seen
something infinitely interesting
could you show me dear?
something I've not seen
something infinitely interesting
-Incubus
and then I knew. |
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| This is what happens when you get stoned with one of your bestests. |
[May. 25th, 2006|02:22 pm] |
SACIN ON THE MILLS
"My darling girl, when are you going to understand that being normal is not necessarily a virtue? It rather denotes a lack of courage!"
1. Do you know anyone's myspace password?
We know everyone's (we're master hackers)
2. Do you think your love life right now will last long?
Until the bottom of the bag
3. Are u an emotional person?
only on fridays
4. If you had one last breath to say something to someone you love what would you say?
Can I borrow lighter?
5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
only when it comes to cows
6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
no
7. What was the last thing you did?
threw up on my dog
8. Who is right next to you?
sac
9. Who was the last person you ate with?
sac
10. How many times has your page been viewed?
847887589375983759 8375983 ha
11. How's the weather right now?
boring
12.Last person you called today?
H.R PUFF AND STUFF
14. Last song you sang?
Im henry the 8th, I am , I am, Im henry the 8th I am
15. Last time you danced?
every 10 minutes (my life is freakisly close to a musical)
16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
Yes, My friend and i fought over the last potato chip, (she ended up in the hospital)
17. Smoke?
where!?
18. Last thing you ate?
My dog
19. Been really depressed before?
Only on thursdays
20. Faked being sick to miss school?
next please.
21. What time did you wake up today?
noonthirty
22. Current taste?
COFFAY
23. Do you like the person who sent you this?
stole bitch, like a two dollar hooker
24. What are you wearing right now?
pasties
25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
Ketup?!578576
27. Where are you now?
burbs
28. WHAT DATE AND DAY IS IT?
we have lost track of time here
29. DID YOU GO SOMEWHERE YESTERDAY?
Mars
30. WHAT DID YOU DO THERE?
sang songs in the bread isle?
31. how old are YOu?
32
33. ARE YOU MATURE OR IMMATURE?
premature ejaculation
34. WHAT DO YOU CALL UR MOM & DAD?
HEY!
35. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
after i stuffed my brother in the closet at 5, yes.
36.WHERE DO yoU GO SHOPPING?
the gutter
37. DO U LIKE YOUR SCHOOL?
your mom
38. DO YOU LIKE BOOKS?
i use them to wipe my beeeehind
39. DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED?
I know, right!
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If you could paint the sky in another color, what it would be?
dookie brown....GROSS!
If you had to eliminate one emotion from your life, which would it be?: constipation
If you were asked to come up with a new toothpaste flavor,what would it be?: COFFAY!
What's your favourite rainy day activity when you're alone at home?: plotting against sarah michelle gellar...HUH?! ps- I KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST SUMMER BITCH!
Fire broke out at home: MARSHMELLOWS!
How often do you get teased for your musical taste?: VAAAAAGIIIIINNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Try typing your name with your elbow: DEFRGTHYUJKI (STEPH)
SAC (EVIL HOOKER)
Do you save your loose change? If so, why?
DUDE....COINSTAR.
What is your favorite Tom Hanks movie?: TOM HANKS SCARES THE LIVING CRAP OUTTA US.
A new mixed drink has just been concocted, what will you name it?HEY GUYS TRY THIS COOL NEW DRINK I INVENTED....WHAT SHOULD I NAME IT?
What is your favorite dream (or kind of dream) that you've ever had?: AIN'T MY JOB TO HUMP YOU WHEN YOUR MOMS DEAD....AIN'T MY JOB TO JUMP YOU WHEN YOUR MOMS DEAD....ANYMORE. (IN OTHER WORDS...A LOVELY CHEESEBURGER WITH SOGGY FRENCH FRIES.
Name up to three breakfast cereals that you enjoy now or as a child.: MY BUTTERSWORTH SCARES US
Sleep nude in a seedy motel bed ~OR~ wear a stranger's underwear for a day?: BOLOGNA SANDWHICH
What is the best advice that you've ever received?:
TO BLOW MY NOSE BEFORE I WENT SWIMMING....GROSS EH?
Do you hate hospitals?: YO MAMA DRAMA MAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA MAMA
Do you work better alone, or with other people?:
THERES A LITTLE MAN IN MY PURSE!
How many different cell phones have you ever owned?:IT BREAKS CAL RIPKINS RECORD
When and why was the last time you screamed at the top of your lungs?: GAZOONTITE
Why do you answer surveys like this?: BALLS
How many Abercrombie polos do you own? HA. (SMARTASS LAUGH)
Do you always wash your hands after using the bathrooM? THIS IS KIND OF A DUMB QUESTIONS...SURE ASS GOBLIN
Can you do a cartwheel? DEPENDS IF THE WEATHER IS RIGHT.
Would you skate goofy or regular? WHAT MICKEY MOUSE?
How many times have you been to the mall this week? I WAS LONELIER THAN A TWO CENT PIECE OF GUM, AND I NEEDED A TACO SO I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND THEN TOOK A SHOWER AND THIS SPIDER CALLED ME A BITCH SO I SQUASHED IT AND AS HE DIED HE SAID...."BEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTCCCCCCHHHHHH"....... WEIRD MEXICAN SPIDER.
Do you regret something you did yesterday? YET AGAIN ANOTHER QUESTION NOBODY CARES ABOUT..GEEZ!
Are you allergic to anything? YOUR MOM
Have you ever been tubing? NO. I WOULD SLIP THROUGH THE HOLE AND DIE...OR WORST GO UP RIVER AND PASS OUT AND BE TAKEN IN MY CRAZY MOUNTAIN PEOPLE AND END UP BEING A PRISIONER AND EVERYTIME ANYBODY SHOWED UP TO OUR CRAZY CABIN YOUR WOULD HEAR...."DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DAAAAAAAAAA"
Did you have a good Easter? CHOCOLATE BUNNIES TO CELEBRATE THE RISE OF JESUS CHRIST....HELLLLLLLLL YEAH!
Do you own a guitar? NO BUT I CAN THE PLAY THE RECORDER LIKE A CHAMP.....I.E HOT CROSS BUNS....HOT CROSS BUNS...NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA HOT CROSS BUNS.
Have you ever rode in an ambulance? ONCE AFTER THAT CRAZY NIGHT IN RENO
Do you like the taste of beer? OF COURSE
Do you have a piggy bank shaped like a pig? YEAH..ALFRED
Crayons or markers? MARKERS, I SUPPOSE BUT REALLY IVE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT
What age do you wish you were? 7
Do you shower facing the shower head or with your back to it? BACK TO IT, IF YA DONT IT HITS YA IN THE EYE AND THEN YOU GET HOT SOAPY WATER IN YOUR EYE.
Do you have anything in your pockets right now? TWO TURNTABLES AND A MICROPHONE
What is the most money you ever found on the ground? I DONT KNOW
What is the closest object to your right? COFFAY
Do you like school? SOMETIMES
How many windows are up on your computer? 4
Do you share your computer with anyone? nO
What color are the walls of your room? DOOKIE BROWN...GROSS
Are you wearing socks? NO
How many hours did you sleep last night? 5
Did you ever get the chicken pox? yes
Do you own an MP3 player? YEAH
Have you been outside your house yet today? ALOT ACTUALLY. 6 TO BE EXACT.
What is the last movie you saw in theatres? IDK
Did you like it? PROBABLY NOT
What do you want to do tomorrow? LAY AROUND... |
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[May. 6th, 2006|01:09 am] |
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